I hate it when people tell me I'm never around. I know I'm never around. Believe me, I'm never around to spend time with myself, either. I'm never home, I'm never in the Heights, I'm never in Queens, I'm never anywhere. I never see anyone. I miss everything that goes on and always have to be filled in. And somehow, I'm always left feeling like it's my fault. I feel like every second I'm not at field work or class, I have to be extra social with everyone to make up for the times when I'm too busy to talk. But that means that whenever I try to spend a little time just with myself, I feel so incredibly guilty about it.
I'm trying as hard as I can to be everywhere, but somehow, the place I always end up being is on the subway. Well, at least the subway never tells me I'm never around anymore.