Never Around

Jughead put it perfectly.

I hate it when people tell me I'm never around. I know I'm never around. Believe me, I'm never around to spend time with myself, either. I'm never home, I'm never in the Heights, I'm never in Queens, I'm never anywhere. I never see anyone. I miss everything that goes on and always have to be filled in. And somehow, I'm always left feeling like it's my fault. I feel like every second I'm not at field work or class, I have to be extra social with everyone to make up for the times when I'm too busy to talk. But that means that whenever I try to spend a little time just with myself, I feel so incredibly guilty about it.

I'm trying as hard as I can to be everywhere, but somehow, the place I always end up being is on the subway. Well, at least the subway never tells me I'm never around anymore.

Spring Cal 2011

Last night in my apartment, we made an apartment calendar with everyone's general schedules on it so that we'd all have some idea of where each other are at any given time. It got me thinking about how crazy my schedule is going to be this semester.

Wake up: 6:00 AM

Leave apartment: 7:00 AM

Arrive at field work: 8:00 AM

Leave field work: 3:20

Mondays and Wednesdays:

Leave field work: 3:20

Arrive at Bank Street: 4:30ish

Class from 4:45 - 6:45

Arrive back at apartment: 7:30ish

(Five times this semester, I will also have a class from 7-9, when I will not return to my apartment until around 9:30, 9:45)

Tuesdays and Thursdays:

Leave field work: 3:20

Arrive at apartment: 4:30ish

I will also need to begin kallah classes at some point, which will be something else going on at night (to be added in later).

Sunday through Wednesday, I must make time to:

1. Do schoolwork

2. Plan lessons

3. Make lunch for the next day

4. Go to sleep by 9:30

5. Have a life?

THIS, by the way, is why I am never around. And this semester is even more intense than last semester. I can't be social because every night is a "school night" where I have only a few hours every evening to do what needs to get done and then go to bed early. I do miss college, where I actually had time to have friends. :( As soon as graduate school starts up again (um...tomorrow), I will not be able to see Jughead's Hat during the week either.

...Wake me up when it's June.